11:48 pm
heaviness weighs on my heart.
the shouting from those around me is deafening. the anger and frustration that pollutes the air and creates negative energy in the atmosphere becomes so contagious, i feel it’s spreading like a california wildfire. and i fear the disenchantment with humanity, because i have already seen the horrors of what people can do to one another. i feel its that i have lived through pain and anguish so that i may understand it better when i see it in others. (or perhaps that’s what i try to tell myself to keep moving forward, so i don’t simply give up on this journey altogether.)
i have been forced to dig deep in search of my truth. what i have found is that it is necessary to know myself and accept myself unconditionally. it is important to be honest-but that honesty is most important when looking at myself.
i would like to rattle on with some other thoughts, but i have entirely too many things that i am juggling at this moment.
and it is time for rest.
