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WHITE BLANK PAGE IS A FREE WRITING EXERCISE.

IT IS UNFILTERED AND UNEDITED.

HONEST. RAW. REAL.

THIS IS ME UNCENSORED.

objectives in this project: to write freely for a minimum of fifteen minutes each weekday and publish.

Part of me wants to write something important.

Part of me wants to finish at least some small section of this website that feels like it is in eternal flux.

Part of me wants to start/finish/publish at least one of the articles for at least one of my classes.

A huge part of me wants to go downstairs and join P on the couch and numb my brain by watching mindless television.

I start thinking about all these things, and then I start editing what I have written, and I feel the angry pit of self-doubt and angry criticism rising within…

The pangs of fear start waving through my body, and the muscles start to clench and the spasms and the pain in the chest and the tight back and the

BREATHE…..

The biggest part of me wants to know that I am starting to come out of the darkness. And I feel like I finally found a way to navigate through these murky waters.

What does this mean?

Well, right now it means I am moving forward.

One. Step. At. A. Time.

For the longest time, it felt like I was suffocating.

The recent journey was unlike anything I have experienced before, but it felt wildly familiar.

My experience is best captured in metaphors.