I expected the exhaustion
And the days i couldn't get outta bed
I expected the prescriptions
And the pain I felt in my head
I thought slowly I'd start feeling better
I'd stitch my life back together
One day at a time
In one long straight line

But healing fucking hurts sometimes
I wish I would've known
I probably would've closed my eyes
Waited till it was all over
It gets better till it just gets worse
A full time job isn't this much work
I know that I'll survive but
Healing fucking hurts sometimes

I expected
For a few weeks
I might not feel quite like myself
I expected
Someone to tell me
Some explanation for what I felt
But now it's been more than a year and
I still don't have any clear cut answers
And askin just feels like slippin backwards

Yeah healing fucking hurts sometimes
I wish I would've known
I probably should've closed my eyes
Waited till it was all over
Yeah it gets better till it just gets worse
A full time job isn't this much work
I'll know that I'll survive but
Healing fucking hurts sometimes

Ohhh, ohhh, ohhh
No one told me
It would get this lonely, I
Spent 6 months piecing back together
Who I was, will it be forever
So jaded
Done with being patient, I'm
Sick of hearing that I'll be fine

Cuz healing fucking hurts sometimes
I wish I would've known
And someone told me to close my eyes
Wait until it was all over
Yeah it gets better till it just gets worse
A full time job isn't this much work
I know that I survived but
Healing fucking hurts sometimes