suffering. i feel suffering. i feel anger and toxicity in the air and it has polluted me. i feel a heaviness in my lungs. it sits and weighs on me reminding me that to think, speak or feel is to let go and i want to let go of it all. i want to be free.i feel ugly inside. i feel like i have been absorbing negative energy and for the first time in years, real anger has swelled to the surface. a feeling i used to not permit myself to feel. i feel as though i have been absorbing so much from others and sitting quietly because i am not supposed o speak and i can’t handle it anymore. i have to let go.i must be freei must be me